I’m still afraid to walk thru new doors. Not metaphorical doors. I’m talking real, physical doors, with door bells and secured magnetic locks. The intimidating kind of doors.
The doors I did find the courage to walk thru has only led to some of the best opportunities and most fulfilling memories.
So why do I still find so much resistance to walk thru, am I comfortable with my current circumstances? Am I fearful?
“There are too many cars in the parking lot, I can’t go in. There’s no where to park anyway…”
That’s what happened tonight. I rattled off these excuses from fear. Now I’m sitting across the street, in the grocery store parking lot, eating a bakery creme brûlée regretting both of these decisions; skipping my meeting and this dessert choice.
I’m skipping my first volunteer fire dept training because there were too many cars in the parking lot, unfamiliar station, new people, new skills, etc. I’m ridiculous.
This isn’t the first time and probably won’t be the last 🙄 In the instances I took the first step through those doors has been my most rewarding experiences, relationships and self fulfilling. Every other time, returning to each training got easier and it became priority.
Why is it the first time? Stepping through, into he unknown, uncertainty, out of comfort zones.
What if I never questioned or let fear get to me, how many other doors would I discover great things behind?!
My current belief: New doors are scary for the first time, especially big, thick, metal, heavy, metal ones that require you to ring a bell and be “escorted”…it’s intimidating!
The truth: The firefighter who answers the door is smiling and inviting! As with the rest of the people in the room. They all jump up to introduce themselves and welcome me.
My new belief: Opening a new door is exciting and rewarding, exposing a burst of infinite opportunities and experiences. I have the key and courage to choose any door I want and to create the life of fulfillment I deserve! Effff yasss!
I’ll for sure go to my next fire dept training, and every other opportunity I feel even the slightest resistance toward.
I lean into resistance with courage, confidence and certainty.
work in progress 